Last week in Honest Moments, I shared about Letting Go of Worries. One would think, I could rest easy for the rest of the week remembering the advice I shared with others. Yet, ironically, I found myself worrying more than ever about my son heading to school in a few weeks. Sometimes, I seem to think I can balance way more than I should, but God is teaching me and I am slowly learning to accept my limits and you know what, I am not Supermom. Gasp- shocker, right? I know, I know, there are no supermoms. But seriously, it can be really hard to accept that I cannot juggle it all.
It is a hard thing to think about because we often want to do more, be more, take on more… but sometimes I think there is a time when we simply need to accept the place we are in and the limitations it may bring.
Last Wednesday, I actually became convinced homeschooling was the way to go. I announced this to my husband Wednesday morning, who, thankfully is not as impulsive as me, said well let’s just continue to pray. Wednesday was a rather crazy day. It was just non-stop between my oldest, my toddler, and the baby. As I attempted to balance it all, I tried to visualize myself homeschooling during this current season. As I visualized this, reality hit me- there was no way I could successfully home school during this season of my life with 2 little ones underfoot. My husband came home, and I shared about my day and my realizations, all of which he agreed with.
It is hard for me to accept my limitations. I see these ideas on Pinterest for home school and I become like a child in a toy store- wanting everything and dreaming of the perfect school room. I love the thought of it all. Yet, when I sit down and seriously think through it all, I realize that in my current season, it just is not practical.
Some moms may be able to juggle it all- newborns, toddlers, teaching, etc. And I am completely amazed by you all and seriously obsessed with reading all about how you do it- keep it up- it is a gift! For myself, I know this is not my gift. Yes, I love to teach. I love finding fun activities for us to do. However, it is just unscheduled fun. I know myself and if I home school, I want to do it with as few distractions as possible. Right now, I just cannot do that. My days are unpredictable. Some seem to be as smooth as ever and others are just rather crazy filled with diaper blowouts, potty training, tantrums, teaching to share… you get the picture.
So I put aside the home school thoughts (for now, you never know for the future), and I am choosing to embrace this season and accept my limits (accept I am not supermom). I pray daily for the teacher my son will have and for my son as he goes out of my 24/7 care. It is really hard- harder than I thought it would be. But God will give me strength and as the worries are daily flowing in, I am handing them over to God trusting that we are doing what He has called us to do in this situation.
Dear friends, do you have areas where you need to accept your limits? Are you trying to be supermom and handle more than you should? I encourage you to look over life, your responsibilities and pray about what you should be doing. It is hard, I know, but when we are doing what we are gifted in and called to, the blessings will overflow in ways we could never imagine.
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